That’s what I went through for the past 3 days – on my school trip, and then the spelling competition today. I’m going to write about everything in this post, so be warned about the novel-comparable length of this post!
Let me just vent my frustration about the spelling competition today. I lost, when I was just getting closer and closer to winning the preliminary group my school was assigned to. I got through the first 2 rounds and lost out in the 3rd and final round (I was also the last one standing from my team). The word that made me got eliminated was a really easy word – INOPPORTUNE – but I just… blacked out. My mind went totally blank, and then, I panicked. I couldn’t think. I ran out of time, and even when they gave me a chance to spell it again, I just couldn’t. I just don’t know what happened. I was probably tired – I didn’t get enough sleep because I only got back from my trip last night, and spent some time into the night going through some words – maybe because I hadn’t eaten anything. Still, I’m so disappointed and frustrated and angry at myself. It’s the fact that I prepared myself to do my best, knowing that this is the one thing I know I can win with confidence, but in the end I crumbled and failed not because I wasn’t familiar with the word, but because I freaked out and couldn’t save my own ass. It’s the most terrible feeling ever. I’m going to admit I cried for some time, too. That’s just how much losing this competition because of my stupid mistake affected me – the enthusiasm I had before, the prize winnings that I planned to save up for the Japan trip next year.
Thank you, Zephyyy, for listening to my nonsensical rants when I called you up right after I lost even though your lack of more responsive answers weren’t very comforting, I blame your stupid phone’s sound quality D: Guess I really wasn’t making any sense when I was mad and maniacal, looool.
Anyways, I’m still recovering. Writing about this kinda makes me feel a little better, since it’s much easier writing about how I feel rather than talking about it (because if I do that to someone I might just cry again).
So, to make this post un-depressing, here’s my report from my school trip! Firstly, let’s start off Maiba-neechan style:
I am totally and unabashedly guilty of…
…bringing a picture of Sho-chan along, and sticking in it my wallet. *whistles as if it’s the most normal thing to do*
…walking around the hotel corridor barefoot, to and fro between my room and the water cooler and my friend’s room, which was at the other end of the corridor XD
…singing aloud “Love So Sweet” while on a roller coaster, and got laughed at when I went off-tune because my voice was so hoarse from all the screaming.
…shouting “BODOH!” at an eerie-looking boulder while on a ride into the Ghost House, because the boulder was trying to sound creepy but it’s so lame. My friend (who was covering her eyes and practically clinging onto me) thought I was going mad, shouting at the ghostly dolls looooool XD And “bodoh” is Malay for “stupid” – it sounds so much more insulting than “stupid” or “baka”. “Baka” sounds so kawaii XDDD
…driving recklessly in a go-kart and laughing like a madwoman while making crazy dangerous turns. And flashing a peace sign at other drivers when I squeezed myself between two cars.
…watching the Italy vs Romania football match at night while my friends were gossiping XD
…running over to my friend’s room to spy out of the window when she told me she saw a couple on the floor below (the hotel rooms’ windows faced each other) having sex LOOOOOOOOOOOOOLOLOLOLOLOL. But they were done when I went there, dammit.
…getting all swooned and squealing while watching the muscular and totally yummyliciously-hawt European male dancers in the musical-slash-play-slash-magic-show.
…getting even more swooned and squealing when said muscular and totally yummyliciously-hawt European male dancers came out after the show all dressed in jeans and T-shirt (which hid their muscles but DAIJOUBUUUUU) and I edged closer and closer to them just to get a better view and OMG THEIR SEXY ACCENT *nosebleeds and dies at male dancers’ feet*
…getting disappointed when the most good-looking for all the male dancers walked off hand-in-hand with one of the female dancers (who was equally pretty and tall) T_T Although they made such a cute couple!
Argh, I ran out of guilty pleasures. Ah wells, the trip was fun anyways! I loved the outdoor theme park, especially this ride where it shoots up about 70m into the sky and then shoots up and down – really exhilarating you could feel your soul get sucked out looool. Then there was the musical-slash-play-slash-magic-show which I got the name wrong – it’s actually called Dreamz! AND IT WAS SO. EFFING. AWESOME. SERIOUSLY. I don’t know how to describe it – it’s just amazing! The dancing, the singing, the hilarity, the extreme stunts that got me so fearful for them and yet so awed, and like I said, he hawt-hawt-hawt-yummy-hawt male dancers, who were dressed in either skin-tight costume (THINK YATTAMAN. KGNSKLDNHSKLHS) or barely-there Persian-themed outfits. AND THE WHITE TIGER AND WHITE LION. OMFG. SO PRETTIFUUUUUUUUUUUL. Although I have something against animals being used in these sort of live shows – I always feel sorry for the vigorous training they have to go through just for us humans’ entertainment.
I would’ve taken a video of the show if it wasn’t for the no-camera rule, although I did record the band playing (this could be practice for the any secret recording during Arashi’s concert XD).
We went to Snow World too – IT’S MY VERY FIRST TIME WITH SNOW. It was -6 degree celsius inside and insanely cold even though we were given jackets and gloves, and the moment I stepped inside I could see my breath when I exhaled, LIKE IN THE MOVIES. Kyaaaaaaaaaaah it was so much fun – we threw snow at each other (and attacking our teachers, especially the discipline teacher looool), we played the slides and squeezed ourselves into the igloo (imaging 7 of us squeezing inside and almost falling because of the slippery floor, and me shouting “NOBODY MOVE.” XDDDD), and the most fun of all was the 10m-high slide that we would slide down on a tube – I was just sitting onto the tube and my friend just pushed me without waiting for me to get ready, and I slid down backwards and screaming lmaoooo XD We took a group photo there too! Will scan it once I get my copy!
The only downside of the trip is that… my friends were just party poopers. And camera whores. Seriously, everywhere they went, they took pictures of THEMSELVES, not the PLACE. And one of my friends couldn’t stop posing in front of her own camera and taking pictures of herself, over and over again, it’s kinda pathetic actually. And I really hate camera whores (I’m not so bad so I’m excused xD). Also, they don’t have that sort of outgoing daredevil sort of fun that I always have with my REAL friends (who couldn’t come T_T), so I kinda felt left out when they were all whining and talking about how they want to shop and go to arcades. WTF? I was so pissed at them that my trip wasn’t so fun anymore, especially on the 2nd day. I was really homesick T_T
I’m afraid I’m going to have to upload the photos tomorrow because that’s gonna take another 2 hours, with the resizing and uploading, gomen T_T If you’re looking forward for something worth waiting for, I took a few videos which are pretty interesting!
Sorry I can’t provide any Arashi news, I haven’t gotten the time to catch up yet. I haven’t even caught up with everyone’s blogs! Gomen ne, I’ll visit and comment when I’m free.
Also, I would like to wish Matsumoto-otousan, Ninomiya-otousan, Aiba-otouchan, Ohno-otouchan and Sakurai-otousan HAPPY FATHER’S DAY. ARIGATOU FOR HAVING SUCH BEAUTIFUL, TALENTED, KAKKOII, KAWAII SONS AND GIVING US THIS WONDERFUL THING CALLED ARASHI. HONTOU NI, ARIGATOU *bows* XDDDDDDD
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